The performance and two site-specific performance studies ended yesterday. Today is the reflection day. The two site-specific studies were both extremely fruitful. The power of the place was so strong entering into my mind and body, it almost didn't matter what I was 'doing'. The invisible part of the dance was definitely resonating with the place and time. The final performance inside the theatre was a hard one. Making the installation with the three magic mirrors and red elastic cord was a big challenge. The theatre was split between the new and the old part. I chose the old part to create an environment. The performance itself felt hurried and unsatisfying compared to the site-studies where I could have an unlimited time and the environment determined what I do, how I do, and when the piece is going to end. However, the context, the time, and the place for the final piece was artificially pre-determined, leaving a very narrow window to play with. Perhaps many improvisors feel this pressure of 'having to do' something without the genuine impulse. This pressure is less when the environment is so strong and helping you make decisions. When in the theatre, the environment is created beforehand and the surprises and the unexpected events have to be caused either externally or internally. In this case, the theatre space was not completely neutral. It had peculiar energy and atmosphere. But in the twirl of making the structure, completing the installation, sound, and lights, the open space started getting closed and closed, leaving very small room for unexpected happenings. The attempt of bringing in the memory of two sites into the theatre was, most of the time, perhaps not so successful. What I was finding out was what triggers these pieces of memories from distant places.