It is the New Year, 2014. How's my body and mind doing in the new year? Have I explored everything I had wanted to during the last year? Am I ready to embark on a new journey? I think so. In order to revisit my thoughts and ideas from previous years and to renew my hope and wish for this coming year, I decided to expose my work in a particular setup. A dance festival happening in the nation's capital, Washington, D.C. This festival called "Modern Moves" is featuring twelve contemporary dance companies in D.C. The selection was done via invitation of Dance Place, a venue which has been presenting dance in DC since 1980. To be completely honest, I was a little surprised to receive this honor. As the readers of this blog might know, my work is experimental, bordering on dance, theatre, and visual art. I'm not what people consider as a legitimate dancer (if such a thing exists, I know). I'm also not a part of the dance community. My work is not technique-based, beautiful, athletic, vibrant, nor sexy.
My dance stands on fragility, imperfection, subtlety and sensuality. It is the exploration of the body within the frame of some form or content. It is not the exploration of a theme or a subject matter using the body as a tool. Participating in this concert gave me an opportunity to reflect upon my thoughts on dance and clarify what dance means to me.
Dance is ultimately very personal. It is the living body's business. What is inside, fluctuating mind, rhythm of breath, speed of the soul, all of these create pre-movement that eventually manifest in movements externally. What I'm sharing with the audience is what is happening inside of me through the moment-to-moment encounter with the external environment. I am exposing what is happening in the deepest part of myself to the audience, in a universal form, with the hope that perhaps there is something like this inside of them as well. Perhaps we share something in common. Do we call this resonance? If so, all the companies performed today were aspiring for that. What is the difference? I keep pursuing the question. What do I think is important in dance?
My dance doesn't have a reason. It doesn't mean anything. It is not about anything. It's not about war, violence, love, politics, and relationships. It IS love, politics, war, violence, and relationships.
I am dancing Naoko and my perception of the world, how I see and feel the world, seeps through the movements. I am dancing Naoko. I am, I would like to be, dancing space and time. Existing space and time and imagined space and time. Dance for me is a strong yearning for connection. Connection with the immediate and distant environment. Channeling what is not tangibly existing in the immediate time and space, and at the same time existing in the immediate dimension. By doing so, swirling the audience into a larger cycle of the universe altogether. Dance is also a pilgrimage. A pilgrimage into my own self. Deeper, deeper, going down into the deepest part of self. What kind of 'I' is there? Dance is also ultimately somebody else's business. Through the encounter with my dance, different individuals might be imagining and experiencing something completely different from each other. And that's completely ok.
After today's performance, two men came up to me on the street and commented on my dance. Two things they said - "It was so intense." "It's such control of the body to move so slowly." I'm actually not controlling. I'm being controlled. I'm rushing home to work further, train more, more time with my body, mind, spirit, and soul. Yes, this is the New Year's wish. Definitely.
Photo credit: Paul Emmerson
(Preview - http://www.washingtonpost.com/entertainment/theater_dance/modern-moves-festival-to-feature-dc-areas-most-established-dance-troupes/2013/12/26/3e15d342-6b96-11e3-a5d0-6f31cd74f760_story.html)